1 00:00:09,143 --> 00:00:12,143 'People say that when you wake up from a nightmare, 2 00:00:12,143 --> 00:00:16,143 the relief you feel when you realise it was just a dream is overwhelming. 3 00:00:17,263 --> 00:00:20,023 But sometimes, I wake up from a nightmare 4 00:00:20,023 --> 00:00:21,223 and wish I was still asleep 5 00:00:21,223 --> 00:00:25,223 because it's so much better than real life. 6 00:00:26,223 --> 00:00:30,223 MUSIC: "One To Another" by The Charlatans 7 00:00:35,103 --> 00:00:36,903 I hear our day is coming 8 00:00:36,903 --> 00:00:39,743 Gets sweeter every year 9 00:00:39,743 --> 00:00:41,623 Tomorrow could be too easy 10 00:00:41,623 --> 00:00:43,623 And today is gonna be too near 11 00:00:43,623 --> 00:00:46,263 Trust is for believers 12 00:00:46,263 --> 00:00:48,823 And love can keep the faith 13 00:00:48,823 --> 00:00:51,023 I don't need you, I can't buy you 14 00:00:51,023 --> 00:00:55,023 I can't hurt you. 15 00:00:55,024 --> 00:00:57,764 - synced and corrected by chamallow - - www.addic7ed.com - 16 00:00:57,765 --> 00:00:59,555 _ 17 00:01:02,138 --> 00:01:06,138 'Dear Diary, things are finally looking up. 18 00:01:07,818 --> 00:01:11,818 In the train wreck of my life, one thing has made me feel happy, 19 00:01:12,098 --> 00:01:16,098 not alone and like I'm not the only freak. His name is Liam Owen. 20 00:01:17,978 --> 00:01:21,618 Here are three things I absolutely love about Liam. 21 00:01:21,618 --> 00:01:25,618 Number one, he's just started dating Amy Malone, 22 00:01:26,098 --> 00:01:29,898 so there is no chance of anything romantic happening between us, 23 00:01:29,898 --> 00:01:32,578 which means I won't have to get naked.' 24 00:01:32,578 --> 00:01:34,858 KLAXON BLARES 25 00:01:34,858 --> 00:01:36,818 MUSIC: "Lust For Life" by Iggy Pop 26 00:01:36,818 --> 00:01:39,138 RAE PANTS 27 00:01:39,138 --> 00:01:43,138 'Number two... ' 28 00:01:44,418 --> 00:01:47,618 '... he understands.' 29 00:01:47,618 --> 00:01:49,258 'And number three... ' 30 00:01:49,258 --> 00:01:52,018 - You won't do it. - Fucking will. 31 00:01:52,018 --> 00:01:54,298 You won't! 32 00:01:54,298 --> 00:01:58,098 '... he's absolutely fearless.' 33 00:01:58,098 --> 00:02:01,298 'He's so unlike me. He's not scared by the world.' 34 00:02:01,298 --> 00:02:04,618 - Run! - 'He grabs life by its fucking ears 35 00:02:04,618 --> 00:02:06,618 and he's exactly what I need.' 36 00:02:10,458 --> 00:02:12,298 Why did you do that?! 37 00:02:12,298 --> 00:02:14,018 I hate traffic wardens. 38 00:02:14,018 --> 00:02:17,138 - You don't even drive. - Yeah, well, I hate them on principle. 39 00:02:17,138 --> 00:02:19,578 I don't think we're built for on-foot getaways. 40 00:02:19,578 --> 00:02:22,378 Yeah, well... 41 00:02:22,378 --> 00:02:25,618 ... neither is he. 42 00:02:25,618 --> 00:02:27,618 'When I'm with him, I feel alive... ' 43 00:02:30,058 --> 00:02:32,058 BRAKES SCREECH, LIAM GROANS 44 00:02:35,978 --> 00:02:39,978 '... because he's completely invincible.' 45 00:02:43,418 --> 00:02:47,418 ISLAMIC CALL TO PRAYER 46 00:02:54,938 --> 00:02:56,938 CALL TO PRAYER CONTINUES 47 00:03:00,298 --> 00:03:02,298 Oh, what the... ? 48 00:03:13,858 --> 00:03:16,898 CALL STOPS 49 00:03:16,898 --> 00:03:19,578 I'm getting too old for this shit. 50 00:03:19,578 --> 00:03:23,458 'Monday 14th of October, 1996.' 51 00:03:23,458 --> 00:03:27,458 MUSIC: "Finetime" by Cast 52 00:03:29,498 --> 00:03:33,498 'Dear Diary, I'm beginning to think my life will never be normal.' 53 00:03:34,698 --> 00:03:37,938 Karim wants the baby to be born into Islam, 54 00:03:37,938 --> 00:03:39,858 so he's rekindling his faith 55 00:03:39,858 --> 00:03:41,578 and he's asked me to join him. 56 00:03:41,578 --> 00:03:43,858 Oh, and he's got a job as a lollipop man! 57 00:03:43,858 --> 00:03:45,378 Of course he has. 58 00:03:45,378 --> 00:03:49,378 - Stop! Children are cross! - LAUGHING: Children crossing! 59 00:03:50,258 --> 00:03:51,778 Stop crossing! 60 00:03:51,778 --> 00:03:55,778 Oh! I do love a man in uniform. Mmm. 61 00:03:57,178 --> 00:03:59,138 Oh, bye, darling. 62 00:03:59,203 --> 00:04:01,283 Right, Rae, I hope you're hungry. 63 00:04:01,283 --> 00:04:04,363 We've got to eat all of this pork before tomorrow. 64 00:04:04,363 --> 00:04:07,243 The imam is coming round to talk about my conversion, 65 00:04:07,243 --> 00:04:09,923 and we can't have any of it left in the house. 66 00:04:09,923 --> 00:04:13,923 Sausage roll, Scotch egg, normal bacon, smoky bacon, streaky bacon. 67 00:04:14,723 --> 00:04:18,723 Got gammon, sandwich ham, hot dogs, pork balls, chorizo and Spam. 68 00:04:19,963 --> 00:04:23,803 Oh, it's lucky we're a family that doesn't eat much pork(!) 69 00:04:23,803 --> 00:04:26,203 I know! And... 70 00:04:26,203 --> 00:04:29,003 I had a quick tidy up around the house 71 00:04:29,003 --> 00:04:31,403 and this is the grand total of all of your crap 72 00:04:31,403 --> 00:04:33,123 that you've left lying around. 73 00:04:33,123 --> 00:04:37,123 Why, for example, was this in the kitchen cupboard? 74 00:04:37,243 --> 00:04:41,243 - If you don't want it, throw it away. - I can't throw it away, 75 00:04:41,483 --> 00:04:44,403 - it's a collectable. - I don't care what you do with it, Rae, 76 00:04:44,403 --> 00:04:46,483 just move it out of my field of vision for ever! 77 00:04:46,483 --> 00:04:50,363 This house needs to be spick-and-span for the imam. 78 00:04:50,363 --> 00:04:53,763 RAE SIGHS 79 00:04:53,763 --> 00:04:56,163 'However much fun I was having with Liam, 80 00:04:56,163 --> 00:04:58,483 there was one thing I'd been ignoring, 81 00:04:58,483 --> 00:05:00,203 and that was the fact that 82 00:05:00,203 --> 00:05:04,203 I'd landed Archie totally up to his tonsils in the turd.' 83 00:05:06,643 --> 00:05:10,643 Archie! Please, I just want to apologise. 84 00:05:10,643 --> 00:05:14,643 I know I screwed up. 85 00:05:14,763 --> 00:05:18,763 You didn't just screw up, Rae, you've destroyed my life! 86 00:05:20,323 --> 00:05:23,283 - What did Lois say? - Nothing. 87 00:05:23,283 --> 00:05:27,003 I've not spoken to her since she ran off. 88 00:05:27,003 --> 00:05:28,164 She could've told everybody. 89 00:05:29,165 --> 00:05:30,465 Do you know what that means for me? 90 00:05:32,603 --> 00:05:36,603 I'm so sorry, Archie. 91 00:05:36,723 --> 00:05:40,443 I, erm... I got you some balloons. 92 00:05:40,443 --> 00:05:43,403 I couldn't afford proper helium ones. 93 00:05:43,403 --> 00:05:47,403 And I would've written you a song, but... I can't play the guitar. 94 00:05:47,883 --> 00:05:51,883 ARCHIE SIGHS 95 00:05:52,123 --> 00:05:55,243 Stop calling me. 96 00:05:55,243 --> 00:05:57,283 DOOR SLAMS 97 00:05:57,283 --> 00:06:01,283 RAE SIGHS 98 00:06:03,883 --> 00:06:07,003 I walked into our shop... 99 00:06:07,003 --> 00:06:11,003 Go on, Danny. 100 00:06:12,523 --> 00:06:16,523 And my dad said, "She's gone." 101 00:06:16,963 --> 00:06:20,963 I thought he meant out, like she'd gone out. 102 00:06:22,363 --> 00:06:26,363 She had pottery classes on a Wednesday. 103 00:06:27,963 --> 00:06:31,963 But I was confused, because it was a Friday. 104 00:06:32,003 --> 00:06:35,083 But I went upstairs... 105 00:06:35,083 --> 00:06:39,083 ... and I sat down. 106 00:06:40,603 --> 00:06:44,603 I thought she'd come back. 107 00:06:47,243 --> 00:06:50,963 I thought she'd come back with her hands covered in dried clay! 108 00:06:50,963 --> 00:06:53,843 Danny, this was so long ago. 109 00:06:53,843 --> 00:06:56,723 It's your responsibility to heal it, no-one else's. 110 00:06:56,723 --> 00:06:59,563 I just want to give you a good shake. JENNY LAUGHS 111 00:06:59,563 --> 00:07:02,723 Jenny, I know you're trying to be helpful, 112 00:07:02,723 --> 00:07:04,323 but maybe we could keep it positive? 113 00:07:04,323 --> 00:07:08,323 I know. I'm just saying, I understand he has problems, 114 00:07:08,323 --> 00:07:11,363 but he needs to be a man, for goodness' sake. 115 00:07:11,363 --> 00:07:12,523 Do you know what, Jenny?! 116 00:07:12,523 --> 00:07:15,443 Maybe Danny hasn't read as many self-help books as you. 117 00:07:15,443 --> 00:07:18,963 Maybe he's not as healed and as perfect as you are. 118 00:07:18,963 --> 00:07:22,763 Maybe none of us are. 119 00:07:22,763 --> 00:07:24,763 But at least the rest of us have the good sense 120 00:07:24,763 --> 00:07:26,723 to know when to shut the fuck up and listen. 121 00:07:26,723 --> 00:07:30,723 All right, Liam. That's enough. 122 00:07:36,363 --> 00:07:40,363 Danny, well done, mate! That was very brave of you. 123 00:07:41,203 --> 00:07:43,683 Well, I think that's it for this session. 124 00:07:43,683 --> 00:07:45,763 Come on, Alarm Girl, let's do one. 125 00:07:45,763 --> 00:07:47,923 Thank you, everyone. 126 00:07:47,923 --> 00:07:51,923 'Liam is so unlike me. He's so brave.' 127 00:07:52,203 --> 00:07:55,083 'He just doesn't care what people think.' 128 00:07:55,083 --> 00:07:56,323 - Shit. - What? 129 00:07:56,323 --> 00:07:57,803 Don't say anything. 130 00:07:57,803 --> 00:08:00,303 Don't say anything about what? 131 00:08:00,338 --> 00:08:02,738 - All right, sweets. - Where have you two been? 132 00:08:02,738 --> 00:08:05,418 - Best get going. - Where have you been? 133 00:08:05,418 --> 00:08:06,818 Nowhere. 134 00:08:06,818 --> 00:08:10,698 Erm... Rae's doing sociology, so I lent her my coursework 135 00:08:10,698 --> 00:08:12,938 from last year, right, Rae? 136 00:08:12,938 --> 00:08:16,938 'And that's when I realised, we were more alike than I first thought.' 137 00:08:17,658 --> 00:08:19,818 Yep. That's right. 138 00:08:19,818 --> 00:08:23,818 Oh. OK. 139 00:08:25,618 --> 00:08:29,298 Come on, come on, give it to me! Come on! 140 00:08:29,298 --> 00:08:33,298 Go! 141 00:08:35,098 --> 00:08:36,738 Whoo! 142 00:08:36,738 --> 00:08:40,178 Oh, well played, Archie! 143 00:08:40,178 --> 00:08:43,498 Finish! 144 00:08:43,498 --> 00:08:47,498 RAE SIGHS 145 00:08:54,698 --> 00:08:57,258 Do you want me to go? 146 00:08:57,258 --> 00:09:01,258 Nah! Don't be silly. 147 00:09:02,658 --> 00:09:05,378 SHE SIGHS 148 00:09:05,378 --> 00:09:09,378 Look, I don't like this. It's ridiculous. 149 00:09:10,298 --> 00:09:13,938 Can we be friends? 150 00:09:13,938 --> 00:09:17,938 You know I'd love that. 151 00:09:20,898 --> 00:09:22,858 Come on, lads! 152 00:09:22,858 --> 00:09:26,858 MUSIC: "The Only One I Know" by The Charlatans 153 00:09:28,938 --> 00:09:31,858 'Look, I don't know why I did it... ' 154 00:09:31,858 --> 00:09:35,858 I guess it just reminded me of when you went out with me, 155 00:09:38,418 --> 00:09:42,418 and I didn't want you to do the same thing to Lois. 156 00:09:43,778 --> 00:09:47,778 What if I say sorry a million times? 157 00:09:50,818 --> 00:09:52,178 Sorry. 158 00:09:52,178 --> 00:09:53,658 DEEP VOICE: Sorry. 159 00:09:53,658 --> 00:09:56,138 Sorry! Sorry! 160 00:09:56,138 --> 00:09:58,258 Oh, stop. 161 00:09:58,258 --> 00:10:00,858 HE SIGHS 162 00:10:00,858 --> 00:10:03,898 Well, it looks like she hasn't told anyone anyway, 163 00:10:03,898 --> 00:10:07,898 so, I guess that gets you off the hook a little. 164 00:10:11,698 --> 00:10:13,658 I don't know why did it, Rae. 165 00:10:13,658 --> 00:10:17,658 I just keep... going down this same path 166 00:10:18,578 --> 00:10:22,218 and I feel too polite to stop it. 167 00:10:22,218 --> 00:10:26,218 And before long, I've gone and... Oh, shit! 168 00:10:27,618 --> 00:10:31,618 Oh, shit. 169 00:10:31,858 --> 00:10:33,858 I've been thinking about my feelings. 170 00:10:33,858 --> 00:10:36,258 People think that you dumped me, 171 00:10:36,258 --> 00:10:40,258 and that we never did owt cos I was frigid. 172 00:10:40,378 --> 00:10:42,418 It's not fair what you've done. 173 00:10:42,418 --> 00:10:46,418 And I don't want anyone else to go through what I'm going through. 174 00:10:48,818 --> 00:10:52,818 I know it must be difficult, so I'll let you have some time. 175 00:10:56,058 --> 00:11:00,058 But if you don't tell everyone the truth by Friday... 176 00:11:00,218 --> 00:11:02,498 ... I will. 177 00:11:02,498 --> 00:11:05,338 - Lois, no. - Friday, Archie. 178 00:11:05,338 --> 00:11:09,178 Everyone 179 00:11:09,178 --> 00:11:13,178 Has been burned before 180 00:11:14,778 --> 00:11:18,778 Everybody knows the pain... 181 00:11:23,058 --> 00:11:25,418 RAE SIGHS 182 00:11:25,418 --> 00:11:27,938 (Shit!) 183 00:11:27,938 --> 00:11:31,218 Why haven't you told anyone about group? 184 00:11:31,218 --> 00:11:33,738 Liam, you're, like, the bravest person I know. 185 00:11:33,738 --> 00:11:36,938 You don't give a shit about what people think. 186 00:11:36,938 --> 00:11:38,498 It's nothing to do with being brave. 187 00:11:38,498 --> 00:11:42,378 I've not told anyone because... it's none of their business. 188 00:11:42,378 --> 00:11:45,298 I just can't believe how much... 189 00:11:45,298 --> 00:11:49,298 - What? - You're just like me. 190 00:11:55,938 --> 00:11:58,778 You think I should tell people I'm mental? 191 00:11:58,778 --> 00:11:59,818 I think... 192 00:11:59,818 --> 00:12:02,698 you should do what you want. 193 00:12:02,698 --> 00:12:06,698 It's your life. 194 00:12:09,738 --> 00:12:13,738 Awww. 195 00:12:14,738 --> 00:12:15,978 Hiya. 196 00:12:15,978 --> 00:12:17,738 Oh, shit. 197 00:12:17,738 --> 00:12:21,738 I didn't get any orange juice. Could you grab me some, sweets? 198 00:12:33,538 --> 00:12:37,538 - I've really... - Stay where you are. 199 00:12:37,578 --> 00:12:41,018 You know yesterday, when I bumped into you and Liam? 200 00:12:41,018 --> 00:12:45,018 Where'd you been together? 201 00:12:47,138 --> 00:12:49,658 - GLASS SMASHES -Studying. 202 00:12:49,658 --> 00:12:52,578 Yeah, he's, um, helping me with my sociology. 203 00:12:52,578 --> 00:12:55,458 - So why were you in the park? - We just wanted to go for a walk. 204 00:12:55,458 --> 00:12:57,378 - Well, where were your books? - I... 205 00:12:57,378 --> 00:12:59,178 I'm always seeing you and him together. 206 00:12:59,178 --> 00:13:00,578 Touching and giggling. 207 00:13:00,578 --> 00:13:04,258 And now you're sneaking about behind my back, bullshitting me. 208 00:13:04,258 --> 00:13:07,618 - I promise... - Stay away from him, Rae Earl. 209 00:13:07,618 --> 00:13:12,762 If I see you with him again, I will smash your fucking face in. 210 00:13:14,778 --> 00:13:16,858 Clear enough? 211 00:13:16,858 --> 00:13:20,058 There you go. 212 00:13:20,058 --> 00:13:23,698 See you later, Rae. 213 00:13:31,718 --> 00:13:34,998 Oh, my God. What am I going to do, Danny? 214 00:13:34,998 --> 00:13:38,558 Well, to be honest, I know Tix used to give you a lot of sound advice, 215 00:13:38,558 --> 00:13:42,558 so I'm feeling a bit of pressure here. You know, big shoes to fill and all that. 216 00:13:42,598 --> 00:13:44,918 Well, maybe she's all mouth and no trousers. 217 00:13:44,918 --> 00:13:47,478 Maybe she's like one of those little dogs that yaps all the time, 218 00:13:47,478 --> 00:13:49,678 but is terrified when anything actually happens. 219 00:13:49,678 --> 00:13:52,798 - Do you think? - I don't know. How big is she? 220 00:13:52,798 --> 00:13:54,758 - Not that big. - Well, there you go. 221 00:13:54,758 --> 00:13:58,758 And also, maybe secretly, you're really hard, you just don't know it. 222 00:13:58,998 --> 00:14:01,838 - I mean, you are quite big. - I am not secretly hard! 223 00:14:01,838 --> 00:14:04,478 I am very publicly soft as shit! 224 00:14:04,478 --> 00:14:07,278 It doesn't even matter how big I am. 225 00:14:07,278 --> 00:14:11,278 I dealt with situations like this all the time when I was in the Territorial Army. 226 00:14:13,638 --> 00:14:15,958 What? When were you in... ? 227 00:14:15,958 --> 00:14:17,758 When faced with a situation or a situ, 228 00:14:17,758 --> 00:14:20,478 as we used to call it in the forces, you're given two options. 229 00:14:20,478 --> 00:14:22,958 Fight or flight. 230 00:14:22,958 --> 00:14:25,758 Now obviously, trained individuals like myself rarely ran away, 231 00:14:25,758 --> 00:14:29,758 but for a civilian like yourself, it is certainly an option. 232 00:14:31,158 --> 00:14:32,638 There is another thing you could do. 233 00:14:32,638 --> 00:14:34,478 What? 234 00:14:34,478 --> 00:14:38,478 Just stay away from Liam. 235 00:14:40,398 --> 00:14:44,158 Look, I can try and have a word with her, but Amy is a pretty difficult person. 236 00:14:44,158 --> 00:14:48,158 Maybe she's just all mouth and no trousers, like a little yappy dog. 237 00:14:49,318 --> 00:14:50,998 Yeah, I don't know about that one. 238 00:14:50,998 --> 00:14:52,958 Apparently she got kicked out of her old college. 239 00:14:52,958 --> 00:14:55,678 - What?! - Well, I don't know if it's true, 240 00:14:55,678 --> 00:14:58,878 but they were thinking about putting her in, like, a young offenders' institute. 241 00:14:58,878 --> 00:15:01,358 - What did she do? - It doesn't matter, I was just saying. 242 00:15:01,358 --> 00:15:02,958 What did she do, Chloe?! 243 00:15:02,958 --> 00:15:06,918 Apparently, she... she attacked someone. 244 00:15:06,918 --> 00:15:08,998 - Put them in hospital. - Oh, my God. 245 00:15:08,998 --> 00:15:10,878 Yeah, well, that doesn't matter anyway, Rae, 246 00:15:10,878 --> 00:15:14,478 cos you're going to stay away from Liam. Aren't you? Aren't you, Rae? 247 00:15:14,478 --> 00:15:17,718 Yeah. 248 00:15:17,718 --> 00:15:20,838 By the way, do you know what's going on with Archie at the minute? 249 00:15:20,838 --> 00:15:22,278 No, why? 250 00:15:22,278 --> 00:15:25,758 Apparently he's thinking about jacking in college. 251 00:15:25,758 --> 00:15:29,758 Would you stay on standby? 252 00:15:30,758 --> 00:15:34,238 Because I need another alibi 253 00:15:34,238 --> 00:15:36,398 In the wrong place At the wrong time. 254 00:15:36,398 --> 00:15:40,398 Rae! 255 00:15:40,798 --> 00:15:43,758 Get away from me! Why?! 256 00:15:43,758 --> 00:15:47,758 SHE SIGHS 257 00:15:48,118 --> 00:15:51,358 Your girlfriend, who is nuttier than squirrel shit, by the way, 258 00:15:51,358 --> 00:15:55,348 - is going to kill me if she sees us together. - She won't. It'll be fine. 259 00:15:56,358 --> 00:15:58,378 Are you going to tell her we were at group therapy? 260 00:15:58,398 --> 00:16:00,638 I don't think that will be necessary. 261 00:16:00,638 --> 00:16:04,118 OK. Well, it's been nice knowing you. 262 00:16:04,118 --> 00:16:06,198 Look! 263 00:16:06,198 --> 00:16:08,278 I'm not stopping seeing you. 264 00:16:08,278 --> 00:16:10,518 I like being around you. 265 00:16:10,574 --> 00:16:12,254 I'll sort it out. 266 00:16:12,254 --> 00:16:16,094 I'll have a word with her. Calm things down. 267 00:16:16,094 --> 00:16:20,094 I promise. OK? 268 00:16:21,534 --> 00:16:25,534 RAE CHUCKLES 269 00:16:29,414 --> 00:16:33,414 KNOCKING 270 00:16:36,094 --> 00:16:40,094 There's a place I go whenever I'm in need of calming down a little. 271 00:16:47,454 --> 00:16:51,454 LAUGHTER 272 00:16:51,854 --> 00:16:55,854 - Say when. - When. Shukran. 273 00:16:55,934 --> 00:16:59,174 Rae, erm, what a pleasant surprise. 274 00:16:59,174 --> 00:17:02,054 - Imam, this is my daughter, Rachel. - Hi. 275 00:17:02,054 --> 00:17:06,054 As-salaam alaikum. 276 00:17:07,134 --> 00:17:11,134 Would you care to join me in the kitchen for a quick chat? 277 00:17:13,334 --> 00:17:15,654 First of all, why aren't you at college? 278 00:17:15,654 --> 00:17:17,614 Because I decided to come home early. 279 00:17:17,614 --> 00:17:21,614 Second of all, I specifically told you to do something with this. 280 00:17:22,174 --> 00:17:25,374 It's horrendous. I feel like I'm living in a gay giant's jewellery box. 281 00:17:25,374 --> 00:17:28,334 - I'm throwing it out. - No, you can't! I'm going to use it! 282 00:17:28,334 --> 00:17:29,454 Rae! 283 00:17:29,454 --> 00:17:32,454 This is very important to me, so just be bloody normal! 284 00:17:32,454 --> 00:17:36,454 Just for five minutes! 285 00:17:37,574 --> 00:17:41,574 Inshallah, we can soon open our arms and welcome a new child to Islam. 286 00:17:44,534 --> 00:17:48,214 It's very important to Karim that his baby be born unto Islam. 287 00:17:48,214 --> 00:17:50,854 And thus, it's very important to me, too. 288 00:17:50,854 --> 00:17:54,854 I've been reading your book, and I must say, it speaketh to me. 289 00:17:55,334 --> 00:17:57,814 Holy shit. 290 00:17:57,814 --> 00:18:00,894 Rachel Earl! 291 00:18:00,894 --> 00:18:04,894 Sorry. Sorry. 292 00:18:05,134 --> 00:18:08,334 More tea, Imam? 293 00:18:08,334 --> 00:18:11,214 Say when. 294 00:18:11,214 --> 00:18:13,214 Oh, hiya, Amy. 295 00:18:13,214 --> 00:18:14,374 Hiya, Rae. 296 00:18:14,374 --> 00:18:18,374 Could you come out here so we can have a little chat? 297 00:18:19,974 --> 00:18:23,334 No. 298 00:18:23,334 --> 00:18:27,334 Get out here now or I'll kick the door in. 299 00:18:33,534 --> 00:18:35,534 I told you to stay away from him. 300 00:18:35,534 --> 00:18:39,534 - I told you you weren't going to be friends. - Just smack her. 301 00:18:40,494 --> 00:18:43,094 Amy, she's clearly lying. 302 00:18:43,094 --> 00:18:47,094 I'm not! There's nothing going on between us! I don't fancy him at all! 303 00:18:47,334 --> 00:18:49,694 - Are you saying he's ugly? - No. 304 00:18:49,694 --> 00:18:52,174 So you're saying he's fit? 305 00:18:52,174 --> 00:18:55,934 - No. - Which are you saying? 306 00:18:55,934 --> 00:18:58,694 Oh, bollocks. 307 00:18:58,694 --> 00:19:02,694 I'm saying that he is moderately good-looking, 308 00:19:03,854 --> 00:19:06,014 but within that, he's not my type. 309 00:19:06,014 --> 00:19:10,014 She's bullshitting you, Amy. Just smack 'er. 310 00:19:10,454 --> 00:19:14,454 You can't let her do this to you. Everyone knows she's up to something. 311 00:19:15,694 --> 00:19:17,334 She's trying to embarrass you. 312 00:19:17,334 --> 00:19:19,734 Do you think you're harder than me, just cos you're big? 313 00:19:19,734 --> 00:19:23,414 No, I don't. I'm not hard at all! Oh, no, please, Amy, don't. 314 00:19:23,414 --> 00:19:27,414 Er, I don't know what the bloody hell is going on out here, but it ends now! 315 00:19:28,614 --> 00:19:30,494 Now. 316 00:19:30,494 --> 00:19:32,454 We should go. 317 00:19:32,454 --> 00:19:36,334 You've got until Friday after college to tell me where you were with him. 318 00:19:36,334 --> 00:19:39,934 Otherwise you and I are going to have a chat down Bennett Lane rec. 319 00:19:39,934 --> 00:19:43,934 Understood? 320 00:19:49,094 --> 00:19:52,734 I'd already messed up one person's life by blurting out their secrets. 321 00:19:52,734 --> 00:19:56,734 I couldn't do it again. I needed Liam to tell the truth himself. 322 00:19:57,014 --> 00:19:59,734 - SHE KNOCKS - Liam?! 323 00:19:59,734 --> 00:20:01,974 Liam! 324 00:20:01,974 --> 00:20:05,974 SHE SIGHS 325 00:20:06,814 --> 00:20:10,174 Dear Diary, it was then I realised why I'd taken the clock 326 00:20:10,174 --> 00:20:13,654 - off my wall in the first place. - LOUD TICKING 327 00:20:13,654 --> 00:20:17,654 Every tick and every tock made each molecule in my body twist and hurt. 328 00:20:17,894 --> 00:20:21,374 It reminded me, with a dark sickness, 329 00:20:21,374 --> 00:20:25,374 that Friday was rushing towards me like a steam train. 330 00:20:30,174 --> 00:20:32,614 I couldn't believe I was thinking it, 331 00:20:32,614 --> 00:20:35,014 but maybe my best option was to face up to Amy. 332 00:20:35,014 --> 00:20:37,454 I was bigger than her. Maybe I stood a chance. 333 00:20:37,454 --> 00:20:40,214 - Aiee-yah! The problem was,- _ 334 00:20:40,214 --> 00:20:43,934 I couldn't fight my way out of a wet paper bag. 335 00:20:43,934 --> 00:20:47,054 I needed backup. 336 00:20:47,054 --> 00:20:51,054 I'll fight with you, Rae. I don't how to do it, but I'll try. 337 00:20:51,574 --> 00:20:53,934 You know I'm there, Raemundo. I'll step in. 338 00:20:53,934 --> 00:20:56,294 She won't touch you. You can't hit a girl, though. 339 00:20:56,294 --> 00:20:59,134 I'm not saying I'm going to hit her. I'm going to pull a bounce on that shit. 340 00:20:59,134 --> 00:21:01,414 - We can all do it. - What about next time though, 341 00:21:01,414 --> 00:21:05,334 when none of us are there? What's going to happen then? 342 00:21:05,334 --> 00:21:07,454 I'm going to get murdered. 343 00:21:07,454 --> 00:21:11,454 - Hi, guys. - ARCHIE: Hi. 344 00:21:12,814 --> 00:21:15,134 Did you speak to Amy? 345 00:21:15,134 --> 00:21:16,774 Look, Rae, I can't take sides on this. 346 00:21:16,774 --> 00:21:20,494 Chloe, you're supposed to be my best mate. 347 00:21:20,494 --> 00:21:23,614 Yeah, well, Amy told me how you two keep going off together. 348 00:21:23,614 --> 00:21:26,614 It is suspicious, Rae. I'd be suspicious if I were her. 349 00:21:26,614 --> 00:21:28,134 There is nothing going on. 350 00:21:28,134 --> 00:21:32,134 Where did you even meet him? How did you start hanging around? 351 00:21:32,694 --> 00:21:34,334 I can't tell you. 352 00:21:34,334 --> 00:21:36,174 Right, well, I can't help you. 353 00:21:36,174 --> 00:21:38,854 He... 354 00:21:38,854 --> 00:21:40,694 He just gets me. 355 00:21:40,694 --> 00:21:44,414 What? And I don't? 356 00:21:44,414 --> 00:21:48,414 Thought I was supposed to be your best mate. 357 00:21:48,414 --> 00:21:50,014 I'll see you later. 358 00:21:50,014 --> 00:21:54,014 SHE SIGHS 359 00:21:56,214 --> 00:21:58,854 I could teach you how to defend yourself, Rae. 360 00:21:58,854 --> 00:22:02,854 If you wanted to, if you think it'd be useful. 361 00:22:09,414 --> 00:22:13,414 I know me and Finn were just friends now, but he was still the embodiment of horn. 362 00:22:14,534 --> 00:22:17,054 I still couldn't believe I'd walked away from all that! 363 00:22:17,054 --> 00:22:21,054 The vagina police should come and take my bits away. 364 00:22:23,214 --> 00:22:24,854 Right hand. Go on. 365 00:22:24,854 --> 00:22:28,494 So is there anything going on between you and Liam, then? 366 00:22:28,494 --> 00:22:30,894 - SHE SCOFFS - No. 367 00:22:30,894 --> 00:22:33,934 Why? Do you think there is? 368 00:22:33,934 --> 00:22:36,934 - Amy Malone does. - Yeah, well, she's a psycho. 369 00:22:36,934 --> 00:22:40,934 Is it true that she got chucked out of college cos she... broke that guy's nose? 370 00:22:41,734 --> 00:22:45,174 Jesus. 371 00:22:45,174 --> 00:22:49,174 Here you are. Swap. 372 00:22:51,374 --> 00:22:54,614 I don't really know Liam, but he seems a bit weird, doesn't he? 373 00:22:54,614 --> 00:22:58,614 He's actually a good laugh. Is he? 374 00:22:59,654 --> 00:23:03,654 He's really into his music as well. 375 00:23:05,174 --> 00:23:08,054 He's pretty cool once you get to know him. 376 00:23:08,054 --> 00:23:11,774 Is he? 377 00:23:11,774 --> 00:23:15,774 Here you are. 378 00:23:22,814 --> 00:23:25,334 - So what about you, then? - What? 379 00:23:25,334 --> 00:23:27,894 Well, are you seeing anyone else? 380 00:23:27,894 --> 00:23:29,494 No, not really, no. 381 00:23:29,494 --> 00:23:33,494 Right, then left, and keep your hands up. 382 00:23:34,934 --> 00:23:38,054 What do you mean, not really? 383 00:23:38,054 --> 00:23:40,294 Well... 384 00:23:40,294 --> 00:23:42,894 ... I've sort of got a date this Friday. 385 00:23:42,894 --> 00:23:46,894 Just... it's a favour for a friend, it's no big deal. 386 00:23:47,134 --> 00:23:50,374 FINN GROANS 387 00:23:50,374 --> 00:23:52,134 Oh, my God. 388 00:23:52,134 --> 00:23:56,134 - That's pretty fucking good, Rae! - I'm so sorry, Finn. 389 00:23:56,454 --> 00:23:58,574 I can't do this! I can't hit someone! 390 00:23:58,574 --> 00:23:59,883 So, what are you going to do? 391 00:23:59,884 --> 00:24:02,209 You can't just stand there and let her punch you! 392 00:24:03,434 --> 00:24:04,754 KNOCK AT DOOR 393 00:24:04,754 --> 00:24:06,394 - Liam! - DOOR BELL RINGS 394 00:24:06,394 --> 00:24:08,114 - Liam! Open the door! - KNOCKING 395 00:24:08,114 --> 00:24:09,354 Please! 396 00:24:09,354 --> 00:24:13,354 Liam! 397 00:24:14,674 --> 00:24:16,674 Since Liam was avoiding me, 398 00:24:16,674 --> 00:24:19,474 and since I couldn't fight, there was only one option left. 399 00:24:19,474 --> 00:24:23,474 Flight. 400 00:24:27,394 --> 00:24:31,394 The problem is that I had no car, no cash and no place to fly to. 401 00:24:35,354 --> 00:24:37,246 - Are you all right, Arch? - There's a rumour going round 402 00:24:37,248 --> 00:24:40,274 - you're in a spot of bother. - Something like that, yeah. 403 00:24:42,394 --> 00:24:46,394 Get in then. 404 00:24:57,634 --> 00:25:01,234 - SIGHS - Fucking Friday. 405 00:25:01,234 --> 00:25:05,074 - I'm sorry, Arch. - Don't be. 406 00:25:05,074 --> 00:25:06,754 I've been an arse. 407 00:25:06,754 --> 00:25:08,754 I deserve everything I get. 408 00:25:11,074 --> 00:25:13,954 So, what's the plan? 409 00:25:13,954 --> 00:25:16,154 I don't have one. 410 00:25:17,154 --> 00:25:19,154 I just know I don't want to be here on Friday. 411 00:25:27,874 --> 00:25:30,234 We're getting out of here, Rae. 412 00:25:30,234 --> 00:25:33,514 We're leaving our troubles behind. 413 00:25:33,514 --> 00:25:36,114 Look at that grey concrete disappearing. 414 00:25:36,114 --> 00:25:38,194 Look at those green fields. 415 00:25:38,194 --> 00:25:42,194 Feels good, doesn't it? You feel good? 416 00:25:42,674 --> 00:25:45,434 Feels good. 417 00:25:45,434 --> 00:25:49,434 - SINGS ALONG TO RADIO - * And I'm free * 418 00:25:50,434 --> 00:25:54,434 Free fallin'... 419 00:25:55,514 --> 00:25:57,074 Yeah, I'm... 420 00:25:57,074 --> 00:25:59,754 Oh, for fuck's sake. 421 00:26:00,754 --> 00:26:03,154 I'm cursed. 422 00:26:03,154 --> 00:26:05,274 I swear to God, I'm cursed. 423 00:26:05,274 --> 00:26:09,274 You and me both. 424 00:26:10,474 --> 00:26:13,274 Do you know who J Bruce Ismay is? 425 00:26:13,274 --> 00:26:15,404 No. 426 00:26:15,414 --> 00:26:19,254 He was the managing director of the White Star Lines. 427 00:26:19,254 --> 00:26:21,774 He oversaw the construction of the Titanic. 428 00:26:21,774 --> 00:26:24,614 Sailed with her on her maiden voyage. 429 00:26:24,614 --> 00:26:28,614 When the ship sank, he abandoned it and left 1,500 people to die. 430 00:26:31,374 --> 00:26:34,334 He's one of the greatest cowards in history. 431 00:26:34,334 --> 00:26:36,294 But no-one remembers the cowards, really. 432 00:26:36,294 --> 00:26:40,054 People remember the heroes. 433 00:26:40,054 --> 00:26:42,614 You're not a coward. 434 00:26:42,614 --> 00:26:45,454 I am, Rae. 435 00:26:45,454 --> 00:26:49,454 What are you most scared of? 436 00:26:50,374 --> 00:26:54,374 - Homo. - What? 437 00:26:54,414 --> 00:26:55,974 Gay. Poof. 438 00:26:55,974 --> 00:26:57,894 Bender, queer, faggot. 439 00:26:57,894 --> 00:26:59,694 - Nancy boy. - Stop now. 440 00:26:59,694 --> 00:27:03,414 Poofter, shirt lifter, uphill gardener, 441 00:27:03,414 --> 00:27:06,614 fudge nudger, queen, babba stabba. 442 00:27:06,614 --> 00:27:09,714 Archie, give up! 443 00:27:09,764 --> 00:27:12,084 I don't think many people will do it to my face, 444 00:27:12,084 --> 00:27:16,084 but behind my back, it's going to change everything. 445 00:27:16,924 --> 00:27:19,764 It's not like your fight, Rae, where it's over in an afternoon. 446 00:27:19,764 --> 00:27:23,764 It's for ever. 447 00:27:26,764 --> 00:27:30,484 Do you know who I'm most worried about? 448 00:27:30,484 --> 00:27:34,484 It's not my parents, and it's not the lads at college. 449 00:27:34,484 --> 00:27:37,564 It's Finn. 450 00:27:37,564 --> 00:27:40,804 We've been mates since primary. 451 00:27:40,804 --> 00:27:44,804 We've had sleepovers, we've topped and tailed in the same bed. 452 00:27:46,524 --> 00:27:49,004 When he finds out, I don't want him thinking back to them times 453 00:27:49,004 --> 00:27:52,524 and getting the wrong idea. 454 00:27:52,524 --> 00:27:55,524 He's my mate, you know. 455 00:27:55,524 --> 00:27:59,524 SIGHS 456 00:28:12,244 --> 00:28:15,764 ENGINE STARTS 457 00:28:15,764 --> 00:28:19,764 Let's go back. 458 00:28:19,964 --> 00:28:23,644 - You think we can be heroes? - No. 459 00:28:23,644 --> 00:28:27,644 But let's be cowards together. 460 00:28:30,924 --> 00:28:34,924 CLOCK TICKING 461 00:28:40,284 --> 00:28:43,284 I couldn't bear it any more. 462 00:28:43,284 --> 00:28:47,284 The ticking of that hideous clock, pulling my thoughts towards Friday. 463 00:28:47,484 --> 00:28:49,204 Friday, Friday! 464 00:28:49,204 --> 00:28:53,204 Bollocks to my mum. It had to go back in the cupboard. 465 00:28:54,244 --> 00:28:58,244 KESTER: Are you OK? 466 00:28:59,444 --> 00:29:03,164 I wanted to talk to you about Liam. 467 00:29:03,164 --> 00:29:07,164 What about him? 468 00:29:07,844 --> 00:29:11,844 Well, he's going through a lot at the moment. 469 00:29:12,004 --> 00:29:13,924 He's been through a lot, too. 470 00:29:13,924 --> 00:29:18,924 - Yeah, I know. - I just want you to be, um... careful. 471 00:29:19,684 --> 00:29:22,964 - That's all. - Why? 472 00:29:22,964 --> 00:29:24,804 What do you think he's going to do? 473 00:29:24,804 --> 00:29:27,484 I don't think he's going to do anything. I just want... 474 00:29:27,484 --> 00:29:29,524 You don't even know him. 475 00:29:29,524 --> 00:29:33,444 - I know him pretty well. - You don't know him like I do. 476 00:29:33,444 --> 00:29:36,484 He's exactly like me, and you saying that you don't like him 477 00:29:36,484 --> 00:29:39,104 is like you saying that you don't like me. 478 00:29:39,119 --> 00:29:40,999 I didn't say I didn't like him, Rae. 479 00:29:40,999 --> 00:29:43,199 He worries like me, he's big like me, 480 00:29:43,199 --> 00:29:45,599 he's got the same secrets and problems, 481 00:29:45,599 --> 00:29:47,559 he understands what it's like. 482 00:29:47,559 --> 00:29:50,159 It's my job as a friend to protect that. 483 00:29:50,159 --> 00:29:53,959 It's my job not to betray him. 484 00:29:53,959 --> 00:29:56,679 What do you mean, betray him? 485 00:29:57,679 --> 00:29:59,839 There's a girl at college 486 00:29:59,839 --> 00:30:02,799 who wants to beat me up on Friday, 487 00:30:02,799 --> 00:30:05,559 because she thinks that there's something going on 488 00:30:05,559 --> 00:30:09,559 between me and her boyfriend, but there isn't. 489 00:30:10,559 --> 00:30:12,519 And how do you think that makes her feel? 490 00:30:12,519 --> 00:30:14,439 Humiliated, I guess. 491 00:30:14,439 --> 00:30:17,319 - Have you tried talking to her? - Yeah. 492 00:30:17,319 --> 00:30:18,228 I've tried. 493 00:30:18,229 --> 00:30:20,918 Get her on her own, somewhere she can't feel humiliated, 494 00:30:20,919 --> 00:30:24,359 see if that makes a difference. 495 00:30:24,359 --> 00:30:26,799 I'm scared. 496 00:30:26,799 --> 00:30:29,199 - You're afraid of getting hurt. - Obviously! 497 00:30:29,199 --> 00:30:33,199 And it's going to be in front of everyone, which just makes it worse. 498 00:30:34,239 --> 00:30:38,239 I hate that I'm the kind of person that's scared of everything. 499 00:30:38,279 --> 00:30:41,919 I never used to be like this. 500 00:30:41,919 --> 00:30:45,919 - I used to be brave. - And what happened? 501 00:30:47,479 --> 00:30:51,479 The world happened. 502 00:30:51,599 --> 00:30:54,679 The world happened. 503 00:30:54,679 --> 00:30:58,279 The world is always going to happen, Rae. 504 00:30:58,279 --> 00:31:02,279 And being brave isn't about never being afraid. 505 00:31:02,559 --> 00:31:06,559 It's about what you do when you are. Whether you can keep your head. 506 00:31:07,199 --> 00:31:11,199 Whether you do the right thing. 507 00:31:12,959 --> 00:31:14,559 I had to see if Kester was right. 508 00:31:14,559 --> 00:31:18,559 I had to get her on her own, try and make her see sense. 509 00:31:24,319 --> 00:31:27,482 - What are you doing 'ere? - I wanted to talk to you. 510 00:31:27,483 --> 00:31:28,483 So talk to me. 511 00:31:28,639 --> 00:31:32,639 Start by telling me what you were doing behind the curtain in college. 512 00:31:33,319 --> 00:31:37,079 I was telling Liam about how your feelings were hurt. 513 00:31:37,079 --> 00:31:41,079 And how he should explain that me and him... 514 00:31:41,119 --> 00:31:43,679 ... we're not up to anything. 515 00:31:43,679 --> 00:31:47,679 And you've never done anything with him?... Not even kissed him? 516 00:31:48,359 --> 00:31:51,239 Not even kissed him. 517 00:31:51,239 --> 00:31:54,359 'I do so hate it when Kester's right.' 518 00:31:54,359 --> 00:31:56,879 'But sometimes, I love it in equal measure.' 519 00:31:56,879 --> 00:31:59,599 We couldn't find your... 520 00:31:59,599 --> 00:32:00,959 'Oh, shit.' 521 00:32:00,959 --> 00:32:03,039 What's she doing here? 522 00:32:03,039 --> 00:32:07,039 - She's come to beg me not to fight her. - Well? 523 00:32:07,959 --> 00:32:11,839 Did she tell you where she keeps sneaking off with Liam? 524 00:32:11,839 --> 00:32:15,839 No. She didn't. 525 00:32:16,519 --> 00:32:20,359 I can't. 526 00:32:20,359 --> 00:32:21,999 I can't tell you. 527 00:32:21,999 --> 00:32:25,999 See you tomorrow after college, then. 528 00:32:33,759 --> 00:32:36,679 - Liam. I need you to open the door. - DOOR BELL RINGS 529 00:32:36,679 --> 00:32:40,679 Liam! 530 00:32:52,879 --> 00:32:54,079 Come in. 531 00:32:54,079 --> 00:32:56,599 I'm trying to protect you. 532 00:32:56,599 --> 00:33:00,599 I'm trying to help you, and you just keep avoiding me. 533 00:33:00,919 --> 00:33:03,399 I know it's no-one else's business, 534 00:33:03,399 --> 00:33:06,199 - but you have to tell Amy about group. - No. 535 00:33:06,199 --> 00:33:08,039 - Liam! - I can't do it. 536 00:33:08,039 --> 00:33:10,519 I don't want to do it. You don't understand. 537 00:33:10,519 --> 00:33:11,799 Of course I understand! 538 00:33:11,799 --> 00:33:15,799 I had to admit to everyone that I'd been locked up. 539 00:33:16,119 --> 00:33:17,599 You're not even that bad. 540 00:33:17,599 --> 00:33:19,519 Liam, please! 541 00:33:19,519 --> 00:33:23,079 If you don't tell her, then... I'll have to. 542 00:33:23,079 --> 00:33:24,559 You're giving me no choice. 543 00:33:24,559 --> 00:33:26,679 No. Please, Rae. 544 00:33:26,679 --> 00:33:30,639 - Well, it's either that or I get my face smashed in. - Please. 545 00:33:30,639 --> 00:33:33,559 Please. 546 00:33:33,559 --> 00:33:34,799 Please. 547 00:33:34,799 --> 00:33:38,799 'And that's when I realised, we were more alike than I ever imagined.' 548 00:33:39,279 --> 00:33:42,119 'He was as terrified as I'd been.' 549 00:33:42,119 --> 00:33:44,959 'I'd seen that look many times before.' 550 00:33:44,959 --> 00:33:48,959 'Normally it's on my face, staring back in the mirror.' 551 00:33:49,199 --> 00:33:51,239 Liam. 552 00:33:51,239 --> 00:33:53,039 Are you having a panic attack? 553 00:33:53,039 --> 00:33:54,559 GASPS 554 00:33:54,559 --> 00:33:56,839 'It's like you've suddenly been transported 555 00:33:56,839 --> 00:33:59,719 to the top of a massive building and you're looking down. 556 00:33:59,719 --> 00:34:02,399 No other feeling left in your body but scared. 557 00:34:02,399 --> 00:34:06,399 Properly, unbelievably scared.' 558 00:34:46,039 --> 00:34:48,599 Sorry. 559 00:34:48,599 --> 00:34:52,599 Don't be daft. 560 00:34:54,479 --> 00:34:56,719 You're very good at talking me out. 561 00:34:56,719 --> 00:35:00,719 Most times I'd just be off. 562 00:35:00,759 --> 00:35:04,759 Find somewhere to hide out until it stops. 563 00:35:04,759 --> 00:35:07,399 My mum has got this cupboard at ours. 564 00:35:07,399 --> 00:35:11,399 And it's piled high with all the stuff I'm not supposed to have. 565 00:35:12,279 --> 00:35:16,279 I just eat until it stops. 566 00:35:16,319 --> 00:35:19,559 About Amy... 567 00:35:19,559 --> 00:35:22,919 ... I'll be there, Rae. 568 00:35:22,919 --> 00:35:25,039 Four o'clock tomorrow. 569 00:35:25,039 --> 00:35:27,319 I'll meet you on the rec. 570 00:35:27,319 --> 00:35:31,119 Well, I'll be there too, remember. 571 00:35:31,119 --> 00:35:34,479 And it won't be as bad as you think. 572 00:35:34,479 --> 00:35:38,479 MUSIC: I Hope You're Feeling Happy Now by Skunk Anansie. 573 00:35:44,439 --> 00:35:46,999 I hope you're feeling happy now... 574 00:35:46,999 --> 00:35:50,999 'Well, now I'd gone and bloody done it, hadn't I?' 575 00:35:51,879 --> 00:35:55,519 'What the hell did I kiss him back for?' 576 00:35:55,519 --> 00:35:58,359 'The argument "I've done nothing wrong" 577 00:35:58,359 --> 00:36:00,099 is looking pretty weak round about now.' 578 00:36:00,309 --> 00:36:02,789 CLOCK TICKS 579 00:36:02,789 --> 00:36:05,349 Five, four, 580 00:36:05,349 --> 00:36:09,149 three, two, one. 581 00:36:09,149 --> 00:36:11,149 TICKING STOPS 582 00:36:11,149 --> 00:36:14,549 It's Friday. 583 00:36:14,549 --> 00:36:17,309 Sodding Friday. 584 00:36:17,309 --> 00:36:20,309 RAE SIGHS 585 00:36:20,309 --> 00:36:23,269 Who do you think she's going to tell first? 586 00:36:23,269 --> 00:36:25,109 I suppose it don't matter. 587 00:36:25,109 --> 00:36:29,109 I just wonder what the protocol is for something like this. 588 00:36:30,269 --> 00:36:32,829 Do you think she's having flyers printed? 589 00:36:32,829 --> 00:36:36,829 Erm... I think she'll probably tell Vicky and then Vicky'll tell Amy. 590 00:36:39,829 --> 00:36:43,829 Amy will tell Chloe. 591 00:36:49,949 --> 00:36:52,189 I'm fed up, Rae. 592 00:36:52,189 --> 00:36:55,349 - I'm fed up of being scared. - It's all right to be scared. 593 00:36:55,349 --> 00:36:59,349 It's what you do when you're scared that matters. 594 00:36:59,349 --> 00:37:03,349 Yeah. Well, I'm not doing anything, am I? 595 00:37:05,349 --> 00:37:07,349 I want to be proud of who I am. 596 00:37:07,349 --> 00:37:09,669 I want to be proud of myself. 597 00:37:09,669 --> 00:37:13,669 How can I be proud of myself if I'm hiding? 598 00:37:14,389 --> 00:37:18,389 So, what do you want to do? 599 00:37:24,269 --> 00:37:28,269 SIGHS 600 00:37:28,989 --> 00:37:31,709 Here he is. Finally. 601 00:37:31,709 --> 00:37:33,709 What's going on?! I've got work in ten minutes. 602 00:37:33,709 --> 00:37:36,189 - It is everything OK, Archibug? - Is Lois pregnant? 603 00:37:36,189 --> 00:37:37,429 No. 604 00:37:37,429 --> 00:37:39,389 Are you ill? Do you have a serious illness? 605 00:37:39,389 --> 00:37:42,829 - Oh, my God. Archie! - I'm not ill. 606 00:37:42,829 --> 00:37:45,109 Please, please stop guessing. 607 00:37:45,109 --> 00:37:49,109 Can you just tell us now, cos you're scaring me? 608 00:37:50,949 --> 00:37:53,229 SIGHS Right. 609 00:37:53,229 --> 00:37:55,189 You know how me and Lois broke up? 610 00:37:55,189 --> 00:37:57,189 Tell me you've not got me down here for that. 611 00:37:57,189 --> 00:37:59,309 I'm going to get bollocked when I get back. 612 00:37:59,309 --> 00:38:02,949 He's clearly not finished. 613 00:38:02,949 --> 00:38:04,989 I wanted to tell you... 614 00:38:04,989 --> 00:38:08,989 why it didn't work out. 615 00:38:11,109 --> 00:38:13,349 SIGHS 616 00:38:13,349 --> 00:38:17,349 Just tell 'em, Arch. 617 00:38:20,549 --> 00:38:24,549 - You know? - Of course I know. You're me best mate! 618 00:38:27,309 --> 00:38:30,789 - You never said anything. - Neither did you. 619 00:38:30,789 --> 00:38:34,789 Listen, it's... it's your business. 620 00:38:40,469 --> 00:38:42,229 Archie, what's going on? 621 00:38:42,229 --> 00:38:46,229 MUSIC: "Animal Nitrate" by Suede 622 00:38:50,509 --> 00:38:51,749 I'm gay. 623 00:38:51,749 --> 00:38:55,709 He said he'd show you his bed 624 00:38:55,709 --> 00:38:59,709 And the delights of his chemical smile 625 00:39:00,189 --> 00:39:03,069 So in your broken home... 626 00:39:03,069 --> 00:39:05,109 That's why you wouldn't get off with me?! 627 00:39:05,109 --> 00:39:09,109 THEY LAUGH 628 00:39:09,269 --> 00:39:12,669 Come here! 629 00:39:12,669 --> 00:39:15,909 'It was the coolest thing I'd ever seen.' 630 00:39:15,909 --> 00:39:19,269 'The relief on Archie's face. He'd earned that by standing up, 631 00:39:19,269 --> 00:39:21,749 by doing the right thing.' 632 00:39:21,749 --> 00:39:24,709 ... Oh, oh-oh, oh, oh-oh 633 00:39:24,709 --> 00:39:28,709 Now your animal's gone. 634 00:39:29,549 --> 00:39:33,549 'And now it was my turn.' 635 00:39:35,949 --> 00:39:39,949 'The thing was, that every day is a battle for people like me and Liam. 636 00:39:40,389 --> 00:39:42,109 Every bloody day.' 637 00:39:42,109 --> 00:39:45,469 'So, what does one more matter for us?' 638 00:39:45,469 --> 00:39:49,469 'And maybe we weren't always brave on our own, but we could be together.' 639 00:40:04,189 --> 00:40:08,189 TRAIN HORN BLARES 640 00:40:09,869 --> 00:40:12,149 Come on, Liam. 641 00:40:12,149 --> 00:40:14,709 Where is he? 642 00:40:14,709 --> 00:40:18,149 You'd better win, Rae! I'm gonna lose a shitload of cash otherwise! 643 00:40:18,149 --> 00:40:21,109 - Yeah. - Oh, come on, Liam. 644 00:40:21,109 --> 00:40:23,109 Oh, bollocks. 645 00:40:23,109 --> 00:40:25,869 Bollocks. 646 00:40:25,869 --> 00:40:27,389 PANICKED BREATHS 647 00:40:27,389 --> 00:40:31,389 CLATTERING OF TRAIN ON TRACK 648 00:40:37,549 --> 00:40:39,709 I'm not gonna fight you, Amy. 649 00:40:39,709 --> 00:40:42,669 You're just going to stand there while I smash your head in, are you? 650 00:40:42,669 --> 00:40:45,749 I don't... I don't know. 651 00:40:45,749 --> 00:40:48,909 - Amy, no, this isn't going to happen! - Chloe, what are you doing?! 652 00:40:48,909 --> 00:40:51,229 You said you weren't going to take sides. 653 00:40:51,229 --> 00:40:54,229 Yeah, well she's my best mate! 654 00:40:54,229 --> 00:40:57,309 And I don't care if she doesn't tell you where they were together. 655 00:40:57,309 --> 00:41:00,069 I believe her. She wouldn't do something like that. 656 00:41:00,069 --> 00:41:02,429 You'd better get out of my way, Chloe, I mean it. 657 00:41:02,429 --> 00:41:05,309 I'm not scared of you, Amy! 658 00:41:05,309 --> 00:41:07,989 You've got this reputation as a hard case. 659 00:41:07,989 --> 00:41:11,989 Where's your proof? 660 00:41:12,349 --> 00:41:15,189 - There's your proof. - Are you all right? 661 00:41:15,189 --> 00:41:19,189 What the fuck is wrong with you?! 662 00:41:19,349 --> 00:41:21,349 I've got something I need to tell you. 663 00:41:21,349 --> 00:41:25,109 And... I didn't want you to have to find out from me, 664 00:41:25,109 --> 00:41:28,469 but... I need to tell you the truth. 665 00:41:28,469 --> 00:41:32,469 So, go on, then. Say what you've got to say. 666 00:41:32,989 --> 00:41:34,909 Me and Liam, 667 00:41:34,909 --> 00:41:36,149 we kissed last night. 668 00:41:36,149 --> 00:41:38,189 YOUTHS GASP 669 00:41:38,189 --> 00:41:40,709 Kissed? 670 00:41:40,709 --> 00:41:44,709 Yeah. We hadn't done it before, but we did... 671 00:41:45,829 --> 00:41:49,829 ... and... I'm sorry. 672 00:41:57,029 --> 00:42:01,029 LAUGHTER 673 00:42:06,549 --> 00:42:08,189 GASPS Chloe! 674 00:42:08,189 --> 00:42:11,269 I'm so sorry! 675 00:42:11,269 --> 00:42:13,709 Yeah. 676 00:42:13,709 --> 00:42:16,989 'Like I said, me and Liam are the same.' 677 00:42:16,989 --> 00:42:20,989 'We're both mad, we're both fat and we both let people down.' 678 00:42:34,469 --> 00:42:38,469 'There's a place I go whenever I need calming down.' 679 00:42:42,549 --> 00:42:46,189 'Like Kester says, the world is going to happen, 680 00:42:46,189 --> 00:42:49,429 whether you like it or not.' 681 00:42:49,429 --> 00:42:53,429 GROANS Ow! 682 00:42:55,709 --> 00:42:59,709 - GROANS - Ow! 683 00:43:08,469 --> 00:43:10,349 TV ON 684 00:43:10,349 --> 00:43:11,629 How are you feeling, love? 685 00:43:11,629 --> 00:43:13,269 Has that ointment helped? 686 00:43:13,269 --> 00:43:15,309 Yeah. 687 00:43:15,309 --> 00:43:18,229 Thanks. 688 00:43:18,229 --> 00:43:22,229 SIGHS 689 00:43:24,629 --> 00:43:28,629 TV: So, contestant number one, please, tell us about yourself. 690 00:43:28,829 --> 00:43:31,069 What were you and those girls up to the other day? 691 00:43:31,069 --> 00:43:34,549 Nothing. Just messing around. 692 00:43:34,549 --> 00:43:38,549 Yeah, well, just tell me if there's anything going on. 693 00:43:38,749 --> 00:43:42,749 I don't mind giving people a clip behind the ear if I have to. 694 00:43:42,789 --> 00:43:46,789 Especially if they're messing with my little chicken. 695 00:43:50,469 --> 00:43:54,469 I can't believe you're giving up bacon. 696 00:43:56,989 --> 00:43:58,029 No, neither can I. 697 00:43:58,029 --> 00:44:00,989 You. 698 00:44:00,989 --> 00:44:03,309 You're like Queen of bacon. 699 00:44:03,309 --> 00:44:06,149 Bacon is your life. 700 00:44:06,149 --> 00:44:09,229 Yeah, well, I'm pretty good at messing things up, Rae. 701 00:44:09,229 --> 00:44:12,189 I've always had a talent for it. 702 00:44:12,189 --> 00:44:15,149 I love that man so much. 703 00:44:15,149 --> 00:44:18,149 Such a quiet, kind person. 704 00:44:18,149 --> 00:44:20,869 He's so special to me that... 705 00:44:20,869 --> 00:44:24,869 ... I'm going to try everything I possibly can not to mess it up. 706 00:44:24,949 --> 00:44:28,549 'I wish I'd tried harder not to mess things up, because I was starting 707 00:44:28,549 --> 00:44:31,709 to realise that quiet, kind, special people 708 00:44:31,709 --> 00:44:33,949 come along once in a lifetime.' 709 00:44:33,949 --> 00:44:36,949 Jesus. 710 00:44:36,949 --> 00:44:38,789 I wish I'd brought some bamboo. 711 00:44:38,789 --> 00:44:40,469 ANIMAL GRUNT 712 00:44:40,469 --> 00:44:44,469 Don't. 713 00:44:46,309 --> 00:44:50,309 How's things? 714 00:44:50,349 --> 00:44:52,389 How did it go with your parents? 715 00:44:52,389 --> 00:44:56,389 My dad went in the kitchen and made a brew. 716 00:44:56,549 --> 00:45:00,229 My mum asked if there were any gay societies in Durham, 717 00:45:00,229 --> 00:45:03,269 - in case I get into uni there. - Hmm. 718 00:45:03,269 --> 00:45:05,349 THEY LAUGH 719 00:45:05,349 --> 00:45:07,229 Are there? 720 00:45:07,229 --> 00:45:09,709 I don't know. Maybe I'll start one. 721 00:45:09,709 --> 00:45:12,669 Ooh. LAUGHS 722 00:45:12,669 --> 00:45:15,389 To be honest, I feel like a huge weight 723 00:45:15,389 --> 00:45:17,909 has been lifted off my shoulders. 724 00:45:17,909 --> 00:45:19,829 ARCHIE SIGHS 725 00:45:19,829 --> 00:45:21,589 YOUTH: Shoot! Shoot! 726 00:45:21,589 --> 00:45:25,509 Obviously, there are some people... well, 727 00:45:25,509 --> 00:45:29,509 I guess I just need to give people time to adjust. 728 00:45:30,069 --> 00:45:31,909 But this is 1996. 729 00:45:31,909 --> 00:45:33,669 I guess the world's moving on. 730 00:45:33,669 --> 00:45:36,349 Archie. Sorry, mate. 731 00:45:36,349 --> 00:45:37,749 What's up? 732 00:45:37,749 --> 00:45:40,349 One of my brother's uni mates is down from Glasgow, 733 00:45:40,349 --> 00:45:44,349 so we've got a full team. 734 00:45:45,189 --> 00:45:46,949 But I always play. 735 00:45:46,949 --> 00:45:50,149 Sorry, buddy. 736 00:45:50,149 --> 00:45:54,149 MUSIC: "Boys Don't Cry" by The Cure 737 00:46:09,789 --> 00:46:11,909 I would say I'm sorry 738 00:46:11,909 --> 00:46:15,069 If I thought that it would change your mind 739 00:46:15,069 --> 00:46:17,269 But I know that this time 740 00:46:17,269 --> 00:46:19,149 I have said too much 741 00:46:19,149 --> 00:46:21,189 Been too unkind 742 00:46:21,189 --> 00:46:23,389 I try to laugh about it 743 00:46:23,389 --> 00:46:26,589 Cover it all up with lies 744 00:46:26,589 --> 00:46:29,109 I try to laugh about it 745 00:46:29,109 --> 00:46:31,229 Hiding the tears in my eyes 746 00:46:31,229 --> 00:46:35,229 Cos boys don't cry 747 00:46:38,069 --> 00:46:41,216 Boys don't cry. 748 00:46:41,217 --> 00:46:48,217 - synced and corrected by chamallow - - www.addic7ed.com - 749 00:46:48,267 --> 00:46:52,817 Repair and Synchronization by Easy Subtitles Synchronizer 1.0.0.0